Today was the first day of school. I now have a third grader and a first grader. I can't believe it still. My blog is now one year old too. I started this blog last year at the same time my second daughter went off to Kindergarten. I think I thought I would now have all this time to sew and create because I would only have two at home instead of three. Boy was I wrong! This last year has been a huge change for me and it has been interesting to look back on it through this blog. I think this blog has become a way for me to organize my thoughts, document my feelings, and remember all that I have done and made and given away. I thought if I started this blog I could show people what I made and who I am, which would then help them to buy from me. Instead this became more of a self searching project for myself. I have also relaxed with the selling part of my craft and tried to get back into enjoying what I do and make. My family needs me so much right now I don't need the added stress of trying to sell the "stuff" I have made.
I have also found blogs to be a strange world as well. You are only seeing what I am sharing with you. I try to pick the best pictures, maybe brighten them a little too, and then post a description of that moment. Behind these pictures a whole lot of crazy life stuff is going on. Right now I am just getting by. My husband just had his third shoulder surgery and has to sit in our recliner and sleep there too for at least a month. He is not allowed to pick anything up for months either. This means all duties are on me and the added bonus of taking care of him. It has been a challenge. The first time he had this surgery my baby Jacob was 8 weeks old. I don't even remember that time because it was so hard. The second surgery was when he was 9 months. That was even harder because I was still nursing him, he wasn't sleeping through the night yet, and he was crawling! Again, I don't know how I got through that time. It was truly by the grace of God. This time I have asked for help from my church. That was very hard to do. I am getting help from so many ladies it is amazing. I feel so blessed because of their help. But it is still challenging and I am in constant prayer because I can't do this on my own strength.
Today was a good day though. It was an exciting day getting the kids all dressed up for their first day of school. It was fun getting back in touch with the neighbors at the bus stop. And It was so fun to watch them get on the bus. I will miss them through the day, but with them at school it is less for me to worry about at home.